PAiN

The last few days, I have visited HELL. I have been put in the worst position possible and I always thought I was making the right decisions when I guess I was dead wrong. Why do things have to be like this? Why did he choose me to be the star performer in his little circus of a life. Yes, my life wasn't perfect before but it was far less complicated. I'm not going to blame him for everything because I'm not perfect and i chose the wrong path to travel down but now i'm lost somewhere in the middle trying to find my way back to sanity. Why am I always made out to be the bad guy in every situation? I did not force anyone to like me let alone come around me so why in every situation it looks like i'm the one doing something wrong? I just want to move past this. Because its too much and no matter how much he cares about me and how much he likes me.. i'm always gonna lose because he's always gonna have her waiting on the sideline.. and thats hella unfair.. especially when peoples feeling are getting hurt. I am sorry that it had to be like this..

But now...
you've lost me.
Good Bye