Just Listen..

.. so yesterday.. although i haven't seen him or talked to him in forever.. Randy calls me and says he needs to talk to me.. so whatevs.. i'm a cool person, talk. Basically, he didn't do much talking.. matter of fact.. i did all of the talking.. See Randy basically PLAYED me.. i've never been played by no nigga.. but that nigga played me.. i'm not gonna go into much details.. but i will say, you can do me wrong.. and i will forgive you.. i'm very optimistic and living in the past gets you nowhere.. but he will have to live with the consequences so thats him.. but anyways.. when we were talking.. i asked him if he knew who he was.. like honestly deep down inside.. do you know who you are now, who you want to be.. etc.. he didn't really know.. I asked him if he knew what made me happy.. keep in mind i was around him everyday for 5 months so he should have a pretty good understanding of what makes me happy.. he had no clue.. i asked him if he knew what made him happy.. he had no clue.. Pretty much he was lost.. so this is what i told him.. i told him he had the potential to be a great man but he's too busy trying to be what everyone else wants him to be and not being himself.. he's too stuck on trying to make everyone else happy and is skipping out on his star player.. the reaction i got from him was not what i expected but i think he needed to reach a status of disequilibrium before he reaches a state of equilibrium. I told him that he had to leave everyone alone and worry about himself before he could reach that..

there will never be another chance of being blessed with my presence and having me as his girl.. but i told him, i'd be his friend.. whenever he needs to talk or get things out i'm available.. Damn i'm good.. because this morning he tweeted about what I said.. As long as he made a mental note of what i said and took it into a consideration.. i did my job.. i'm done..

In my past relationships, I have been through it all.. from Michael blacking my eyes, to Randy and his infidelity... But no matter what i've been through.. i would never hold the next person that is blessed with having me as their girl accountable for anything those lames do.. if you have been in a relationship before when male/female has done you wrong.. don't let those insecurities get the best of you.. learn from your mistakes and move on... learn to be a better person.. sitting around, living your life day by day letting others actions in the past affect your future is quite stupid.. live your life for you and no one else.. i'm not perfect, but i'm working on it..