my life has been flooded with so much bullshit that i haven't even been in the mood to sit down and express how i feel... I feel so reeetarded it's not even funny. I honestly will admit that I think I have low self esteem.. and I honestly think this low self esteem was brought amongst be through either society or my culture/up bringing. I never understand why I settle for less. I always thought that it was only me but when I look at my sisters we all do it. I'm beautiful, educated and know I can have and deserve someone who is just as beautiful and educated as me. But still I find myself settling for less. Why? I'm really trying to figure this out..
I feel like I have been lied to too much to really trust.. but then I had to think.. why when I am trying to give my all, be honest, i'm falling flat on my face? For so many years I haven't been honest and its finally coming to bite me in the ass.. I dont know tho.. this blog makes no sense to me.. so if you understand lol fill me in..
I want to be lost in a love where I am the only person that matters.. I've never had that feeling with anyone.. there was ALWAYS someone there.. ugh.. Makes me feel like i'm not good enough to be the only one. well i'm gonna go now i'm done.
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