Pure Confusion

I told myself that falling in love with you was dangerous..
But I could not help it..
And now I find myself constantly arguing with myself if this feeling is right..
If loving you is worth the risk of another broken heart.
As much as I try to fight it...
I find myself constantly thinking of you..
I tell myself to leave you alone..
That as much as I adore your sweet smile..
Its just pure poison to my soul..
I'm in a losing battle..
There is no winning..
And my best qualities..
Ambition, persistence, motivation..
are going to be my downfall..
I just do not know what to do..
My loyal personality will not let me lye in the hands of another..
My loyalty will not let me dance with the thought of exploring other available fish in the ocean..
It will not let me enjoy romance..
Because my heart is set on you..
And until my heart gets what she wants she will not stop..
And that's exactly how I end up hurt.

Untitled.

Like a seed planted into the ark, cold, damp earth, I hid my love for you hidden inside my chest festering at the seams similar to the roots that sprout from a seed.  At first I tried to fight it, beating at my chest like a raged barbarian.  But every time I fought, love won every time.

I tried to tell myself this was not right.  That love was a nasty drug.  When I was so high on love before, no one could bring me down.  I was so high I sat on clouds in the sky singing with the birds and waving gracefully at passengers on airplanes.  But when love was ready to leave my system and I was not ready to let go, it would be a heart wrenching battle that would seem like it would never end.  I could not sleep, I could not eat, I could not do anything.. until I had another fix of love..

When I fell out of love.. I promised never ever to fall in love again.. but like a thief in the night, you came and stole my heart..