I'M S0RRy

This morning i was faced with a dilemma that i knew was going to happen sooner or later. i'm just glad that it happened sooner.. so this morning I went and took a shower and when I came back i could tell that something was wrong by the look on his face. I asked him is something was wrong but he said nothing was wrong so i wasn't going to press the issue. then he tweeted, "Should I bring it up or jus leave it silent n forever hold it n????" and i forsure knew something was wrong.. so i asked him what he had to say and at first he was like nothing but i knew it was something.. so I told him that I wouldn't be upset or anything and that he should feel like he can talk to me when he needs to.. soooooooooooo guess what he wanted to talk about.. I already knew that he went through my phone.. but he tells me he went to my phone and read me and Michael's phone conversation... Oh my.. i didn't remember exactly what I said to him but when I did read them i completely understand why he would be concerned.. I would be a liar to say that I don't care about Michael because I really do but then at the same time.. i completely know that our relationship is OVER and there will never be a Michael and Jasmine again.. I told him that I have no intentions on getting back with Michael and that I don't intend on even speaking with him again ((that's what my last text to him said, that I no longer felt the need for us to be in contact with each other))..

yesterday I told him I didn't want to talk to him anymore because it was too much drama and he say she say.. i was hella sad though because i really do care about him and i know that he cares about mee... so i talked to my brother and sister and cousin and they all told me that i need to stop fighting my fears and just go with the flow.. sooooooooooooooooooooooo i told him how i really feel.. that I do want to be with him and that I have been playing games because i'm not tryna get hurt but that ain't no other nigga i want... this morning when the whole Michael thang came up i let him know that what i said yesterday was the truth and although Michael was the love of my life i'm willing to let go and move forward with him.. i know i been playin hella games and i havent been solid but for reals.. i'm not playing anymore.. like all the niggas i associate with to fight the feeling is not helpin.. its just complicating things.. someone told me to stop fighting with my own happiness so thats what i'm going to do... I always hold back from how i'm really feeling... I'm always tryna be a lil nigga and not give a fuck when deep down inside i doo.. I hella care about that boy.. he's does a lot for me, makes me laugh... gets on my nerves.. and although i might fall flat on my face.. i'm gonna give it a try!