well...

f0r the last 2.6 years i have been g0ing thr0ugh s0 much tryin 2 stand by my man like a d0wn ass female is supposed 2 d0... ive been faithful and havent cheated and now im tired of being on this r0ller c0aser... s0 im jumpin 0ff the ride and yes.. ive landed 0n my tw0 feet... its g00d th0ugh because i will be 0kay... im 21 and i have many years 2 l0ok f0rward t0o.. at first i was alright becuz although i l0st m0st 0f my friends i had my b0o by my side s0 i was g0od.. but then.. he left me... and expected me t0 b sittin here waiting... but wh0 did i have here 2 help me survive?! n0b0dy becuz i didnt talk 2 any0ne anymore... but y0u kn0w what... i have s0me friends that i h0nestly c0nsider my true friends... First & f0rm0st...MD... u are my friend... whenever i needed 2 talk.. u was available.. whenever u needed to talk about ur girl.. i wasnt.. but u didnt d0 me dirty... u was still my friend.. Alth0ugh we fight and bicker like were enemies... My friend mukhaye... becuz she is a stupid bz.. lol.... naw but she keeps me 0n an adult level and n0t g0in back 2 my 0ld ways 0f m0ppin a bitch 0r nigga... And last but n0t least!! hayw0od freakin D0uglas!! Drunk ass nigga!! lol... but yeah.. im simply tryin to survive.. im s0 excited 2 g0 2 the bay area this weekend... ive never been so excited in my life!! lol... but basically i just wanna live.. not go through drama like im married.. because as much as i was brain washed into thinkin we was ever gonna get married... we arent.. But yup thats all i have 2 say right now..