Well that is exactly how I feel right about now.. Although its sunny and hot ((its the first day of summer)) its stormy in my life.. As I lay in bed I ask myself.. when will I stop feeling like this? When will I be all smiles and laughs again.. Love is a hell of a drug.. It can make u feel like you are on top of the world and nothing can stop you.. to making you feel like your whole world has crashed and crumbled like the twin towers.. To see my lover and best friend behind bars again hurts.. I feel like i failed.. like our love wasn't strong enough... but then again I realize that you can not control no one's destiny.. they can only control their own.. So i give up.. 3.6 years together and I can't keep him out of jail. Me being an educated woman know that I deserve so much more.. But it's hard giving up something that I'm so used to.. It's hard giving up love.. I know that I will always love him no matter what.. I know that he will always hold that special place in my heart.. BUT i have to do it this time.. I can't say i'm going to do it & go back this time.. I have to keep my head up high and walk away..
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which is exactly what you need to do...please be strong girl...for all of us, so that one day you can set an example for the women who are going through similar situations...I pray things get better for you...as you look out that window...look past the rain..look past the hurt...and try to see ur future..it might be hard to, and blurry at first, but if you keep looking..you will see exactly what is coming to you : )
thank you, i needed 2 hear that!
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