L0ST

WITH0UT Y0U... LOL N0 I LIED.. BUT REALLY I AM L0ST RIGHT N0W.. IM L0ST AB0UT WH0 IS REALLY IMP0RTANT 2 ME IN LIFE... IVE BEEN SOOOO HURT THAT IVE BEEN SURR0UNDIN MYSELF AR0UND TH0SE WH0 D0NT GIVE 2 FS AB-UT ME... I REALIZE Y0UR USING ME BUT I LET IT G0 BECAUSE AT THE TIME.. IM PAYIN F0R Y0UR C0MPANY.. I USED 2 BE ABLE 2 G0 2 MY FAMILY F0R HELP WHEN I NEEDED THEM THE M0ST.. BUT N0W A DAYS.. EVERY0NE HAS THEIR 0WN AGENDA S0 N0W ALL I HAVE LEFT IS MY BABY BR0THER MARQUIS..
THE 0THER DAY.. I WAS FACE 2 FACE WITH MY WORST ENEMY && MY BEST FRIEND... AND ALTH0UGH M0ST 0F THE TIME I TAKE HIS W0RDS F0R GRANTED.. HIS W0RDS MADE TEARS C0ME FROM MY EYES.. THR0UGH EVERYTHING.. WH0 D0 Y0U KN0W Y0U CAN TRUST?! CAN Y0U TRUST Y0USELF?! IM NOT GOING TO GO INTO THE WORDS HE TOLD ME BECAUSE IM SELFISH AND I WANT THEM TO MYSELF.. BUT I REALIZED THAT MANY PEOPLE ACT LIKE THEY CARE... WHEN THEY D0NT.. THEY ACT LIKE THEY LOVE YOU BUT THEY DONT.. FOR THE LONGEST I DIDNT KNOW WHAT LOVE REALLY WAS.. I NEVER REALLY FELT LOVED BY MY PARENTS... MY DADS LOVE WAS MONEY.. && MY MOM TRIED TO HARD..

THE BEST LOVE I EVER FELT WAS FILLED WITH THE MOST DRAMA AG0NY STRUGGLES... THE MOST UNHEALTHY LOVE EVER!! BUT IT WAS LOVE.. ALTHOUGH ALL U EVER HEAR PEOPLE TALK ABOUT IS THE BAD... THERE WAS A LOT OF GOOD TIMES... AND THAT LOVE WAS ALWAYS THERE.. WHENEVER I NEEDED SOMEONE 2 JUST LISTEN WHILE I CRIED A RIVER... THAT L0VE WAS THERE... WHEN TIMES G0T R0UGH & THEY ALL GAVE US THE MIDDLE FINGA WE HAD EACH0THA.. BUT IM L0ST BECAUSE IM C0NFUSED 0N WHATS RIGHT... AND WHATS WR0NG.. L0VE IS A P0WERFUL DRUG..