s0metimes y0u have 2 let g0 && see what happens...

I LOVE michael unc0nditionally but What am i t0 d0 ab0ut my current situation... i want 2 believe him s0 bad but what if every0ne else is right.. I understand that i have been a m0nster the last few m0nths and i deserve pay back... but Karma is a straight bitch and this shit is straight t0rture... 0mg im g0nna die!! i miss him s0 much and i d0nt kn0w what 2 d0.. L0ve is Crazy... 0nce y0u fall in l0ve its like y0u are trapped and there is n0 way 0ut.. h0w much y0u try... i d0nt want t0 leave him.. i really d0nt.. i feel like i put in t0o much time and eff0rt int0 this relati0nship f0r it t0 just end.. but i want 0ur relati0nship 2 b less cha0tic and m0re l0vin... we had that... but what happened... where did we g0 wr0ng.. when did we turn 0ur backs 0n each 0ther.. was it me?? was it him?? was it 0ther pe0ple?? what was it? he says he still wants 2 be with me... but i d0nt know.. s0 basically ill have t0 wait and find 0ut what happens..