0UT WiTH THE 0LD..

s0o.. ever since ive 0fficially been single i have been a whooooole better person.. like honestly there is so much of me that i held back because of him.. but anyways.. yeah.. enought about him and more about ME!!

first && f0rem0st id like t0 say my life has been great!! ive been hanging with my amiga's lol.. havin hekka fun... partyin.. && to end our winter break we all got tatted.. pause.

So this is Marie's TATT00.. She g0t a purple heart since my gpa was in the Navy && his name and sunrise && sunset dates.. representin for her angel..

THis is My BiG SiS Stephanie's tattoo.. representin half 0f 0ur ethnic background.. the Philippines.. duh.. lol

The next day i was under the needle.. i got sampaguita flowers (philippine national flower) & my last name..



and Lastly Tiffany got a flower && her middle name..

Great winter break basically!! lol.. now school. yesterday was the first day and i had 4 classes.. most of my classes seem like they will be fun.. so im rollin with it.. i just dont like having all the breaks in between but since i have 2 online classes i guess that i will be good.. oh my special ed class is only 10 weeks!! which is pretty much great!! i guess i can do my observations at valley, an elementary special ed (severly handicapped) and also in a gate program.. i need to get on that asap.. but basically idk i just wanted to drop somethin down about how things are going now..

oh yeah.. i am extra excited about my niece coming too!! i can wait!! well basically thats it!

RELATi0NSHiP STATUS: SiNGLE

0kay since i changed my status 2 single on FB.. i've been havin hella people hit my inbox up asking 51 million questions.. i know y0u all wanna know so instead of having to explain to all of you one by one imma write this blog and be done okay.. so here it goes..

f0r m0st 0f y0u wh0 d0nt kn0w.. Michael is in prison.. we have been together for 3 years and 18 months out of the relationship he has been in jail.. not consecutively but in 2007 he did 9 months and this time hell do 9 months.. add it together and that makes 18 months.. we have been through our ups and downs.. most of the ones that are close to me know details.. im not gonna knock the nigga because id be damned if he knocks me but.. basically.. we both know how to bring the worse out of each other and we do it well.. all of the time to be exact.. i just think that a lot of things that happened wouldnt have happened if we werent together.. since hes been gone i've been cool.. i've been around my sister and my cousin more and my god sister.. when he was home i would go months, damn near years without talkin to them at all.. i'm not lookin forward for him to come home and be on lock down.. i mean im not gonna lie and say that i dont love him.. because i do.. he's had my back through a lot but.. i dont love his ways and his mentality.. hes not mature enough... he has a criminal mind and i'm a college student.. how would you feel if you found out your son/daughters teacher was married to an inmate?! not a good look.. so basically he needs to grow up.. he needs to come out and show me that he really wants to change his life around that that he is not going t0 be on that same ol bullshit.. he just better hope by the time he gets his life together im not snatched up already..

being with him i realized that the bad boy look is sexy but not for me.. i like someone who got they own life and yes i wanna spend all my time with you.. but i got school and work and you got work school somethin to do then think about what im doin all day and if im being faithful or whatevs ya know.. im not sayin that he's a bad person im just sayin hes not the right person for me... we've been throught a lot.. a whole lot.. more than you can imagine.. but now its time to end this story and open up a new one.. or at least thise phase of my life is OVER.. so there you go..

am i looking for another man.. No.. i am not looking forward to finding no one else.. having to get to know them.. having to go through all of that again.. so as of right now im just going to enjoy the company that i have now and see where it goes from there.. thank you for everyone understanding..

HAPPy 1ST BDAy Niya!!

HAPPy BiRTHDAy ZANiya.. TODAy is My niece's 1st birthday but Saturday was her party.. it was a cool lil party but i'm absolutely hella upset with my brother because guess who he invited?!?! JALiL!! now for you who dont know who he is he was my boyfriend in high school.. I mean i really didnt care that he was there but damn cuz i got a warning or something.. kinda caught me off guard.. plus this nigga always acts hella weird.. it was kinda ackward ya know.. && they went and got his baby girl.. Now i must say that she is absolutely adorable and i'm glad that shes healthy and he finally got the lil girl that he wanted.. that was the only good thing out of him coming.. lol yeah but back 2 my niece.. she got hella clothes.. i hope that she can fit them all lol.. and she got some toys.. shes gettin hella big and im glad that she made it into this world and that she made it to one.. i'm sad that they moved and that we cant see the baby like that.. but its okay.. well basically thats it.. once again HAPPy BiRTHDAy ZANiya..

TH0UGHTS

S0 N0W THAT IM GETTIN CL0SER T0 MICHAEL C0MIN H0ME IM STARTING T0 QUESTI0N IF I EVEN WANNA BE WITH HIM 0R N0T.. I MEAN REALLY.. IVE BEEN FINE CHILLIN WID THE AMIGAS.. SCHOOL.. WORK.. NO PROBLEMS.. I MEAN DO I REALLY WANNA DEAL WITH ALL THE DRAMA HE CAUSES?! I MEAN HE SAYS THAT THERE WILL BE NO DRAMA BUT IM NOT 100 PERCENT FORSURE.. IM NOT GONNA BAIL OUT BUT IF HE COMES HOME ON THE SAME SHIT.. DUECES BITCH!!! SINCE HE'S LEFT IVE LEARNED THAT THERE IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH TO THE WORLD AND IF HE THINKS HES GONNA BE MY SHELTER THEN IM GOOD.. I HAVE 4 MORE SEMESTERS OF SCHOOL AND THEN IM GOOD.. SO I GOTTA DO FOR ME YA KNOW.. AND I DONT NEED NO DRAMA FROM NO ONE.. SO BASICALLY WE WILL SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN HE COMES HOME..