iM just glad this year is over.. 2008 was a hard year.. dealin with tryin 2 heal from the accident... 2009 was hard too.. with michael leavin.. 2 finding out im gonna have a niece with two incarcerated parents.. 2 finding out im damn near deaf in my left ear.. 2 just trying to survive in this 2nd Great Depression.. I'm know with the economy still at its worse that 2010 is going to be a struggle but i've never felt more prepared f0r what will c0me my way.. im m0re prepared.. im excited to see my niece.. im a little scared because i have never been a parent and i want her to know that she's loved although she has two parents who aint all there.. lol.. im excited to see where my love life will take me.. marriage or will it end.. honestly im terrified to marry anyone.. when your younger you think about it and be like oh my bf is my hubby... but when your actually confronted with the possibility its kinda scary.. and then with him having a background.. i mean im not trying to knock him but still.. i gotta think before i proceed.. lol oh and im excited for the classes that i have left.. i'm not gonna graduate this year like i was supposed to.. i will in 2011 but i am excited that i am on the right track.. this year i need to start taking the Cbest so that in 2011 i can start taking the CSET.. [[for you who dont know im going to school to be a teacher]].. pretty much.. i think ive been at my lowest already so even though i know im not going to be rich in 2010 and i may still struggle a little.. i know that i am ready.. i learned when the bad times come you still have to be optimistic.. because if your negative... then you will not survive.. i try to learn from my mistakes.. sometimes it takes a few times of failing before you succeed.. but at least you succeed.. so basically.. i know that you never go into a new year with a blank slate like some people say (you dont come into the world with a blank slate) because your debts, drama, problems... will follow you into the new year.. but i do know that i am going into the new year prepared for whatever will be sent my way.. i hope everyone has a great new years eve and be safe!
J
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