Self-confidence

Self-confidence is defined as believing in oneself.  My definition of Self-confidence is when no matter how many people doubt you, you believe in yourself.  Self-confidence is something that I struggled with ((and sometimes still do)) a few years ago because I always thought that whatever I did had to be approved good or bad by my friends and family.  I soon realized that most people I know are negative and never approved of anything I did no matter how good it was.  I developed a "i don't give a fuck" attitude and started believing in myself.  Thus i gained confidence.  Since then I am extremely confident in myself.  I refuse to let anyone make me second guess myself.  If you aren't very confident in yourself, others sense that and will take advantage of you.  So readers... are you confident in yourself??

WHy?

Why do we laugh?

Why do we cry?

Why do we even try?

Why do we love?

Why do we hate?

Why do we wait until its too late?

Why are we confident?

Why are we insecure?

Why do we wait for someone else to find a cure?

Why do others affect us?

Why do others get to us?

Why do we let them show and prove to us?

Why is this uncertainty coming over me?

How can I go from confidence to insecurities taking over me?

Late at night

...while I was sleep, he whispered "I love you too" into my ear.

Simple Things in Life

oh how I enjoy the simple things in life..

like receiving that text message

Or finally getting off of work..

like sitting here in complete silence listening to the

sounds of my fingers stroke the keyboard...

Or Hasani's little snores..

I feel accomplished.

I've completed the impossible.

I've put the screaming,

restless...

baby to bed and now here I sit at this computer,

ready to write.

Simple things..

Like being in my favorite place..

Having those strong arms wrapped around me..

Or painting my fingernails..

One white..

Four blue..

Simple things..

Like joking with my brother..

Or reading a book..

Or writing my own..

Simple things..

Like coloring with the kids at work..

Or going for a long walk..

Or hating the pictures he loves the most..

Simple things..

Like being in love...

Or chocolate chip cookies..

Or pretty bright orange sunflowers...

Simple things..

Simple things make me happy..

No money

No car

No materialistic thing..

Can make me more happy than..

Simple things..

The best feeling ever!!

I open my eyes and I see your brown face open your brown eyes and look at me.  A smile appears on my face and my heart feels warm. The feeling i'm feeling is indeed the best feeling ever.  Like eating a chocolate chip cookie fresh out of the oven.  Like enjoying things you've never enjoyed before.  Like knowing that you've fallen and finding no need to get up.


For so long I fought this feeling.
That this feeling of love for him could not exist.
 The love i knew before left me so uncertain about ever loving again.
 But this love... This love is like nothing I've ever experienced before.
This love keeps a smile on my face, and others noticing.
This love makes me sing and dance and laugh.
This love makes me happy that I finally gave him a chance

Hershey Kiss

Dreamy eyes,
Smiling ear to ear
heart beatin out my chest
butterflies live in my belly

His smooth chocolate skin makes me weak
His kisses tickle my spine
His hands own my body
His eyes hypnotize me

i just can't get enough of him.  

He's like a drug and I'm addicted.  

I need a fix, quick. 

Gets me so high from his kisses, i'm floatin

At night...

sometimes at night i sit here and i think about everything that I have been through.. so happy that I met you.  I write because it soothes me.  I write because it gets me through.  There's one place I'd like to be right now.  In his arms where I feel safe and secure.  But my past is haunting me.. just one thing i've been holding in.  I have to let it out..