I'm writing you this letter because in my quest to build my faith, I have discovered I do not love you as much as I should. You sacrificed your only son on my behalf and I only show you my love for you during lent and crisis. That's not how things should be so I'd like to start off by saying I am sorry.
I'm struggling right now because honestly, I don't know how to love you. It's easy to love my mother, father, siblings and friends because they're physically here in my presence while you are only here in spirit. I was once asked during lent, could I live without You. My answer was no but today I realized my words and my actions do not match up. I live without You everyday I don't pray. I live without You every time I skip church. I live without You every time I do not spread Your word. How do I get to where I am today to honestly feeling like I cannot live without You. I read all of these books about how to be a dynamic catholic, how to build a relationship with God.. But doing these things is like being on a diet, it only world for a little while and then you're going back to your old ways. How do I make You apart of my lifestyle?
I know things like this takes time and I thank you Lord for being patient with me. All I'm asking is for you to lead the way.
Love,
Jasmine.
