Trust

TRUST.  A simple five letter word but such a hard thing for most people to do.   What is trust?  To me, trust is when you are extremely confident that someone or something will not deceive you.  But why is it so hard for most to trust?  Bad experiences in the past?  Not knowing the TRUE definition of trust?  They are not trustworthy themselves?

I used to say that I had NO trust issues, regardless of what happened in the past, I trusted everyone that I decided to bring into my life but that was not completely true.  Trust for me is gradual.. I meet you, your cool.. you make it to me coming to your place, I trust you a little.. You make it to where my feelings get involved with you.. i trust you a lot.. one thing I would NEVER do it hold someone accountable for things  that have happened in my past.. sure past experiences and relationships shape us as people but regardless of how much heartache or traumatizing experiences I've had I would never think that the next man is going to cheat on me just because my ex-boyfriend did.

Trust is similar to Love but also different.  Love, its easy to fall in love.. a constant challenge to maintain.. and hard to fall out of love.. Its hard to trust someone, once you do its a constant challenge for them to maintain.. and easy to lose.. Basically what I'm saying is stop being so caught up in who has done your wrong in the past and live for the future.. trust someone.

Rendezvous

He kissed me on my neck
Nibbled my ear
stroked my cheek

He turns me on,
i'm on cloud 9
so high from his lovin

He makes me moan
a sweet moan like a lullaby
tears falling from my eyes

Hes sweet like honey
hot like fire
melts me like butta

He's dark as the night
I'm  light as the day
oppisites attact ♥

Happiness :-)

What does happiness mean to me?  Happiness is even when my world is unstable.. I still find a reason to smile.  My brother Marquis keeps me sane when I feel like i cant put up with anymore negativity.  He is so caring and always has a way of making fun of me but making me and my friends laugh. He even lets my bummy ass stay with him when I have nowhere else to go!  I guess what i'm trying to say is, my brother ROCKS!!!!! Y'ALL AINT GOT NOTHIN ON HIM!!!

kthanxbye!!!!!

Brown Sugar

Who would have ever knew that you would make my heart go pitter patter ((hehehe)) Who would have ever knew that you would be the one to put a smile on my face.  You make me happy just doing the simplest things.. At first my ♥ was cautious, afraid let you in.. but once I did I was happy I did and i've been smiling ever since.

I like how we are different but somehow are still attracted to each other.. like how you wanna a big dog and i want a little ol yorkie.. or u perfer the big city and i perfer the suburbs.. I like how your a socialite and I'm more of a home body.. but you teach me to get out more.. be more friendly lol... just knowing that i have you around excited me.. I really can't wait to see what the future has in store.. ♥

opposites attract ♥

After the storm..

A few weeks ago, my life was chaotic... i didn't know whether I was coming or going.. I felt like the sky was falling & it was only falling on me.. even my co-workers noticed something was wrong.. this kid at work threw a ball and hit me in the head and instead of doing my normal take the ball away for a few minutes i threw the ball back at him and let him continue to play.. now anybody who knows me knows i was straight trippen..

But today is another day.. I am not completely one hundred percent happy with life ((things can always be better)) but I am content.. I stand alone.. I don't need anyone to make me happy.  I have me, myself, and I :-) Love is a struggle, but I have a feeling that love will get better :-)... All around, things have gotten better for me.. i'm in the process of looking for a new place for me and moms, i've been getting better hours at work.. I've been spending time with my baby bro.. Swimming.. catching up on my EJD books.. Right now.. life is going well.. I sit back and laugh that 3 weeks ago I was crying my eyes out.. now today I feel soo much better.. I told you i was strong.. I told you i was Wonder Woman :-)