Friday, March 12, 2010
Confused
So I thought I was so ready to see Michael and discuss this relationship thang but now that he's ready to talk... I'm not so sure... I still love him but I'm falling for R too.. so its hella irritating and confusing... I mean I know I will never go back to Michael but I'm scared that if I meet up with him then I'll b face to face with my best friend again... face to face with three years of happiness, pain, sadness, and misery. I really don't know if I'm ready to face the beautiful nightmare again. On the other side there's R who each day I'm getting more and more attached to. I know he cares about me but this attachment is an illness... like I love waking up right next to him and laying my head on his chest til I fall asleep. I love talking to him because I feel that I can talk to him about almost anything. Whenever I'm feeling down he makes me feel better.. but everyone has flaws... I heard from a few people that he's the jealous type... kinda bothers me because that's how Michael was and I forsure don't want that... honestly I'm hella confused and it's hella been bothering me: -(
nice expression, "his attachment is an illness" and if Michael is your best friend then dont you ever let that go! it has to be more than friendship for a relationship! if you feel you have more than a friendship with Michael then pursue where you left off...it only helps to atleast think about that...on the other hand...the real nightmare is a relationship with a man with a double life...and "He's okay with that" honey, don't sell yourself short! Im so sick uh that cat and I dont even date him, lol, blossom and have fun this spring break girl, RANDY FREE! lol
ReplyDeleteMichael was my best friend until he became abusive. I am beautiful and I looked horrible with a black eye or bruise every other day.. Michael told me.. the only way we will work is if i "listen to what the fuck he has to say and stop tyrna think for myself".. a big fuckin NO
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